Earlier today I chided someone that he has not been visiting my multiply site lately. He said there are no updates anyway. I said well, my life issues has subsided and it's quieter now.
Is it?
Well, after the episode with my mom, the humbling experience of raising funds to pay the hospital bills, the great move out day from our apartment, the on-going two weeks homeless period, the challenging officemate, the humongous work load...
I guess that's enough to drain my entire being and thus made me succumb into this stillness, albeit floating, feeling lately. It's a little like losing one's self.
But the truth of the matter is, despite all those, I have been surprisingly happy lately. I wish I could just blurt out to the world why. But I guess some things are better left cherished in isolation. Just sit back, relax and see the world unfold right in front of your very eyes.
I guess at this point I just want to say, in my stillness, I still breathe. Life still goes on. In quietness, I choose to marvel at the greatness of how the Lord has been that despite my iniquities He still decided I can go on existing in this life.
I've stopped doing some of the things I have been doing.We need that at times. Especially when you are in the crossroad of reorganizing your life. Amazing how an event turns your world upside down and makes you review, revisit, remake your life.
Anyone will be at a loss for words to blog about.
But life is still treating me well. Someone is making me smile. My mom has been attending CCF for three consecutive Sundays now. We still eat three times a day. I still pray.
I'd be an ingrate to ask for anything more than that.
Is it?
Well, after the episode with my mom, the humbling experience of raising funds to pay the hospital bills, the great move out day from our apartment, the on-going two weeks homeless period, the challenging officemate, the humongous work load...
I guess that's enough to drain my entire being and thus made me succumb into this stillness, albeit floating, feeling lately. It's a little like losing one's self.
But the truth of the matter is, despite all those, I have been surprisingly happy lately. I wish I could just blurt out to the world why. But I guess some things are better left cherished in isolation. Just sit back, relax and see the world unfold right in front of your very eyes.
I guess at this point I just want to say, in my stillness, I still breathe. Life still goes on. In quietness, I choose to marvel at the greatness of how the Lord has been that despite my iniquities He still decided I can go on existing in this life.
I've stopped doing some of the things I have been doing.We need that at times. Especially when you are in the crossroad of reorganizing your life. Amazing how an event turns your world upside down and makes you review, revisit, remake your life.
Anyone will be at a loss for words to blog about.
But life is still treating me well. Someone is making me smile. My mom has been attending CCF for three consecutive Sundays now. We still eat three times a day. I still pray.
I'd be an ingrate to ask for anything more than that.
So, thank you Lord for this stillness.
who told you I'm not visiting your site??? hehehe Yep in silence you will find more ... in His time everything will be in places ... Cheers :-)
ReplyDeletehahaha... ayun o! pinakaunang nagcomment... guilty? :-)
ReplyDeletehahaha.. oo nga si B1 yun tinutukoy ko na di nag vi visit ng site... gusto kasi puro love-related blogs... eh ok na ako, wala na room for emote. :-)
ReplyDeleteparang gusto ko magpafiesta ulit ah.... hahahahaha
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