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Day 1 - Saturday

"Awwww! Ok lng, don't say sorry... I'm here if you need to talk. I know how hard that can be..."

"Oist! May kasama ka ba? Wag k ganyan. Magaalala ako. Hindi yun ang sagot. Lam ko mahirap yan. Wag ka muna magwala. Pls call someone who can be with you right now. Anlayo mo kasi. Puntahan kita sana."

"----!!! Sino kasama mo? San ka? Ano ginagawa mo?"

"I know mahirap yan pero kaya mo yan babae lang yun!"

"Cge magtxt k lng, makikinig ako..."

"May ibang plans si Lord for you. That's what I learned when scep left me. Sa kanya din umikot ang mundo ko. Sobra hirap yan sa umpisa pero I trust that the Lord knows what He is doing. I am praying for you, ----. I'm just here."

"I agree.. Mahirap intindihin yan. Pero God works in ways we'll never understand completely. Sometimes He only wants us to trust Him first before He reveals His plan. I pray that you will seek Him in this trying times. Gusto mo meet bukas? Attend ka ulit CCF. I am inviting you. Kahit sa alabang din. I can meet you there and we can talk after.."

"Dito n lng tayo sa ortigas. Libre kita lunch. Kahit san mo gusto. :)
If you haven't done it yet, try mo mag pray. Talk to God as if He's in front of you. Complain to Him. Cry out to Him. Ilabas mo lahat. Just try it. Basta if you want to talk, dto lng ako to listen. I'm praying for you, ----"

"Anu ka ba. I don't mind at all. I completely understand. Last year ako yun ganyan. :) go lang. Txt mate tayo tonight. Hehe"

"I had the same question before. Bakit umabot p ng almost 7 yrs. Kmusta nman sa time ko yun. Pero look at me now. Still smiling at lalo ako gumanda. Haha. Joke. Pinapatawa lng kita. :)"

":( Kaya mo yan, ----. Wag kn mag isip. Pray. I am praying with you."

"Matagal n proseso ang makalimot. Hayyy. Wish I'm there. I'll just hug you hanggang makatulog ka. :( God is with you though. He listens to all of your cries. Just trust and comfort will visit you soon."

"Hindi no. Txt k lng. Mapapagod din ang mata sa pagluha at ang kamay pagtxt. :) Until then, I'll keep you company."

"You are welcome. Thank God kung nakatulong ako kahit konti. Dto lng ako..."

"Cge sleep na. Tamang pills lng ha. Isa lng! :) I pray God will comfort you even in your sleep. Txt me tom. Anytime."

Day 2 - Sunday

"Good Morning. Kakagising ko lng. San ka na??"

"Awww. Pero good yan. Better yun. :) cge basta txt k lng."

"Ok. I understand. Matagal tagal yan pero kaya mo yan. Basta hang in there. Balitaan mo ko baka umalis k bigla. Kumain ka nga! Para sa anak mo."

"Dto lng ko friend ko. Makati. Kaw?"

"Meron maya 6pm. Anu trip mo ngayon?"

"Sama ka CCF dto sa ortigas. Basta keep yourself occupied."

"Cge take the day or even the week off. Basta I'm just here. Sana nga makasama ka nxt week."

"Of kors. :) I'll listen."

"Ganun talaga yun, ----. :( Ilabas mo lang yan. Go lng umiyak. Basta inom k ng tubig ha!!"

"Get busy and start doing things u don't usually do. Nung ako, I kept myself busy with church. That really helped me a lot. Halos suicidal ako dati buti n lng someone cared enough to invite me to attend church. Why don't u try? I am inviting you to ccf nxt wk. It helps to know someone cares and loves us more than any person can ever will. People will always disappoint us, that's what I learned pero my God and savior never will. I am praying for you, that your soul will calm soon, that your heart will stop from bleeding, that your mind will rest from thinking, that your spirit will arise and seek the Lord and that soon you will learn to smile again. *hugs*"

"Definitely will take a while. But trust that the Lord knows what He is doing."

"Sometimes He wants us to learn things we don't realize we need to learn pala. And sometimes He just wants us to trust completely. Blind trust, complete submission."

"Kumain knb? Kakatapos lng ng service sa CCF. Pls eat ha. And try to pray like God is in front of you. Seek Him. I'll be with you in prayers."

"Sira ka. Uminom k man lng ng madaming tubig!! ----!!! Dali! Punta ka ref, kuha ng malamig n tubig!!! Go!!"

Day 3 - Monday

"----!! Morning! I just woke up. :) Kaya mo yan, pahatid kn sa driver sa bulacan! Alis kn muna. Dyan nb tita mo?"

"Yup go elsewhere. Wag ka stay dyan laguna! San n tita? San k ngayon? Ano gawa mo? Kumain ka na ba?"

"Tsk tsk! Labas ka dyan!! Wala pala canteen ngayon kasi holiday? Tsk tsk! May pasok kasi ako. Kung wala puntahan kita dyan! (naks, anlakas ng loob! Hehe) san na tita mo??"

"Paluin ko yan tita mo e, antagal ka puntahan!! :) Basta pagdating nya alis n kyo driver. Ok?"

"Kumusta na? Hehe. Nakatulog ako knina ulit at ngayon lng ko nagising! San ka na?"

"Wag mo na i-text, ----!!! San kn?"

"First thing talga to get over is to rid yourself of her. Lam mo ako tinanggal ko lahat ng pictures at gifts at anything na scep-related. Step 1 yan para hindi mo ma-miss as much."

"I know. Hanggang ngayon mahal ko pa rin c scep! Langya ni hindi ko sya matignan ng hindi ako nanginginig at kinakabahan! Pero I just learned to let go. Hayaan natin maging masaya yun mga mahal natin. Kahit di n tyo yun ksama nilang masaya. Kaya mo yan ----. Ako dami ako ginawa din to hold on samin ni scep dati. Ngayon tinatawanan ko n lng mga ginawa ko. Cge do what u like, txt her, call her, torture urself. I'm just here to listen."

"How to move on? Immerse yourself in other things. Get busy. Go out. And eat, for ur son's sake! Kumain knb?"

"Hurting urself will not change anything. Alis kn muna dyan laguna. San kn?"

"Musta na? Kumain kn?"

"Sa bulacan kn? Kumain kn?"

"Anu ba!! 2 days kn di kain?! Pero san kn ngayon?"

"Hey how are you? Sori nasa meeting ako. Kaya mo yan ----. Magkita nga tayo bukas on ur way to bulacan! Txt mo ko ha?"

Day 4 - Tuesday

"Morning ----! I just woke up and I'm so glad to read your message. I pray God grants you a peaceful day ahead and a healing very soon. And I hope you'll eat something finally and get some fresh air and sun! :) Txt k lng, I'm just here. God bless."

"Thank God! Cge that's the best thing to do. During my own darkest days only God sustained me and I know He will do the same to you. Txt me what time tayo meet on Sunday. :)"

"San kn? Kumain kn?"

"Hayyy! 3 days kn di kumakain??!! Anuba?! San tita mo? Kala ko punta ka bulacan?"

"Oks. Cge keep busy! :)"

"Yes!!! Kumain kn?! Sa wakas! Hehe. Berigud. Naku ----, buwan at taon p ang bibilangin bago mawala sya sa isip mo. Nababawasan lng ang sakit as time goes on pero di completely mawawala. Until now, di ko p rin matignan kahit pic ni scep sa friendster kasi kinakabog p rin dibdib ko. Hehe. True yan. Kaya ni delete ko sya sa acct ko. Pero it gets better. Trust me. Trust that the Lord knows what is best for us. :)"

"Sumasagot nman b friends nya?"

"Yup. Office pa kaya ako! San kn?"

"Waaaaaa! Sa laguna ka pa din? Kelangan mo ng bagong environment! :( alis k muna dyan."

"I understand. Hehe. I think ako nun mga 2months na umaasa, nag aantay ng txt, tawag, email.. Anything! Until napagod n lng ako mag antay so I changed my cell#. Before ko ginawa yun, araw-araw akong nagte-txt sa kanya! I believe everyone should live their lives without regret so if you want to still pursue her, go lang para di ka magsisi later on. Kahit magmukha kang tanga with ur actions. Atleast u know u did everything. Ako looking back, dami ko sobra stupid things n ginawa. Pero ngyon wala akong mga what if questions. Sana nga maayos pa ---- kung yan talaga ang will ng Lord. It takes time talaga. Cge lng, do what you think is best. If it turned out well, thank God. If not, dto lng ko, you can cry on my shoulder.:) and I know God is with you too. Until then, you'll be in my prayers."

Day 5 - Wednesday

"Good Morning ----! Sharing this verse with you, please keep this in mind:
'I can do everything through Him who gives me strength."
-Philippians 4:13
May you have a better day today. :)"

"I sent it just to show I know what you are going through. Lam ko gano kasakit... Pero look at me now, ok na. At least surviving. And I owe it all to my God. You can claim that healing too, ----. It will take a while but you will be okay.:) I'm just here for whatever.:)"

"Ikaw ang kmusta?! I'm glad you see it that way. Lam mo simple lang ang gusto ng Lord satin. That is to trust and believe in Him. That He loves us so much so He sent His only son. Once you accept that truth, everything follows. My experience with scep is my testimony that no matter what, only one thing matters. That is my relationship with the Lord. All the rest - family, friends, relationships - all that is 2nd priority. Tara on Sunday ha. He's been waiting for you  to come and accept Him."

Day 6 - Thursday

"'Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.'
-Matthew 11:28-29
Praying for a better day for you. Good Morning."

"Thank God for your realization. I am looking forward to your journey of acceptance, healing and getting to know the Lord more. Remember God never made a promise that is too good to be true, just trust that He knows what is best. One of the promises He said is this:
'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.'
-Jeremiah 29:11-13
Keep praying and talking to God. He listens. And me too, I'm just here! :)"

"Hey musta na? I had the busiest and most stressful day ever! Hehe. Ngayon ko lng nhawakan cell ko! San k? Pumunta kb bulacan?"

"Hayyy ang sad... Pero ok lng maging tanga basta later on you won't have what if questions. It's really hard to teach our hearts how to stop caring. In fact, I doubt u can. What happens is you'll just later on feel numb from being hurt too many times. Then you'll just get used to that feeling until finally you let go. I agree that's how you really love, you think more of the happiness of the other person. That's how I was too with scep. Kaya the saddest conclusion I've ever thought of is maybe he just lost that love for me kasi it didn't matter to him that I was hurting too much... Keep living ----. Life doesn't end here. There's always a new day. I'm still remembering you in my prayers. Hoping you'll have a peaceful sleep tonight. :)"

"Definitely. Magagalit ako sayo kung di ka magpapakita sakin!!! Hehe! :) gudnyt!"